Weigh in day

Well. I weighed in. And I lost 1.8 pounds. Not even the full 2 pounds that I gained last week.

I'm feeling very emotional right now and I have lots of (mostly self deprecating) thoughts going through my head right now.

I feel like I'm never going to lose this weight. I know I didn't gain it over night - but if you want the truth, I gained over 150 pounds in less than 17 years.

I know that it's only been 25 days, but I just thought that after making such drastic changes, I would see bigger results initially. I mean, you hear people say all the time "if you give up soda you'll lose 10 pounds in a month!" Lies. I've drank more water in the last 25 days than I probably ever have in my entire life and I've lost next to nothing. The only thing I've had besides water was 1/2 glass sprite Sunday on the way home from Florida and 1/2 cup pink lemonade earlier this week.

I dunno. I just wanna cry. The wedding is coming so soon and this just seems to be so futile. I just don't think I'm ever going to lose it all. 170+ pounds!? I don't think so.

But I get so scared and my friend Angie pretty much summed it up (and made me cry more):